Two months before my profession I got my missionary assignment letter to
Rwanda.  Being my first assignment, I became very afraid.  The situation in
Rwanda was very bad at that time.  I was full of fear, doubts and I wasn’t sure
of myself either.  I had a retreat after this, soon before my profession.  I was
able to bring all my worries, doubts and my helplessness to God.  Deep down I
knew that God had a reason for my going to Rwanda.  I felt called for something
I didn’t know. I felt that there was something waiting for me and unless I was
open enough to it, it will never happen.  So I felt encouraged, energized and
ready to go.  I came to Rwanda in 1996.

       
At the moment, a lot has changed as a consequence of the war. Many people have
been traumatized; they live in fear, doubts and even lack of trust. The war has
done a lot to old and young, children and all. Being here has taught me a lot: 
patience, trust, at least how important it is to have a sense of humor and
taking a day as it comes.  A few missionaries have been killed since I came
here. It is a fearful situation at times. We still hope and trust one day there
will be peace.”